Goodbye

It is better that I loved you

Than not to have loved you at all

At a time when I had closed it all in            

I let you in

First in and out of my door

For now I turn blind

So that I can only have the image

Of your smile on my mind

For now I hear no sound

Except the echoes of the words

That reverberate in my head

As I desperately reach out

To hold onto the most I can

Of a memory plucked too soon

I sit here in terror

Terrified of the thought of an empty house

Without your fulfilling presence

The radiance of your smile next to me gone

The softness of your touch on me no more

No more will you be there to melt into my arms

For even in your quiet disposition

You told a loud story

Of my daily emptiness

Of my profound loneliness

Of my desperate need for you fill every void in me

And how you made me whole every time

Saying goodbye to you

Just turned out to be

the hardest truth I have to swallow

Knowing my heart will always love you

Knowing you will always be the one

Knowing I claimed you

When you never were mine to claim

What more could I have done

To make you not leave at all

I feel tears running down my cheeks

Burrowing off a gulley of confidence

Exposing the nakedness of my emotions

Laying bare how profound

Being close to you has been

The best gift to me in a while

I pause and wonder

If I showed you my teardrops

Would you collect them in a bottle

Seal them tight, and keep them

To remind you of the depth of my emotions for you

I celebrate every moment shared with you

Every page that you opened for me to read

Every moment you led me through a walk

In the footsteps of your joys and struggles

I celebrate every lesson from our time together

That reminded me of my humanity

That opened up my horizons in reflection

And that dared me to try to put one foot forward

Go well

Lovely sojourner

Be at peace

For when you look back to your stay

You will know you are remembered with fondness

You are missed

You are appreciated

So long